I've Done It Again by Malorie Blackman

I've Done It Again!

by Malorie Blackman

Confidence up, confidence down

Act like an angel, look like a clown,

Changing your mind, changing it back,

The quick recipe for a heart attack.

Smile at your blunders, laugh at my own.

This isn't right, I should be at home.

Under the duvet, safe from attack.

Changing your mind, changing it back.

Accident prone, but never you worry,

I'll tell you when you should leave in a hurry.

Making up ground for the sense that I lack.

Changing your mind, changing it back.

I've done it again, proved my reputation.

Is this sorrow or is it elation?

Statements once given I cannot retract,

Changing your mind, changing it back.

The notice I earn is diluted with patience,

The smiles that I give are the scorns I receive.

While I hold my breath and count to one hundred,

You'll tell me a tale I am sure to believe.

Fanciful feelings hiding a fool,

A cog that's not turning, a bottomless pool.

Lend me what's common, of which you've a stack.

Then I'll change your mind and I won't change it back.

And so I have. Sigh. I feel like curling up into a ball and rolling under the bed.